
I have been in a dilemma lately. To go to School or Not go to School? That is the question. Along with, what am I doing at school? These questions become more haunting for both me and my wife as I continue to make high priced investments in my mind. Along with these investments that are affecting the family portfolio I have been realizing that more and more time is flying by. My children are becoming little people. I sign my daughter up for kindergarten today and my son went to the bathroom all by himself last night (WOOT WOOT!). These two little events have sent ripples across my brain waves. I am getting older, my children are growing up, school takes up a lot of time, and at this pace I won't be done for another 4 1/2 years. I have been trying to figure out if I should take on more of a work load with school to bang it out so that I can have more time with my children or if I should stay on the path that I am on. In the midst of this decision I have this tugging at my heart for ministry. I feel that I should be doing something more but what?
As of recently our church has been going through a transition process. As one seeking to become a local minister I don't know what my role in all of that is. Should I take on a more decisive role or simply remain in the passive role that I am in??? I am a deliberator by skill set...so I ask a lot of questions with not a lot of answers. I say this because in both instances life seems to be passing me by as I observe everyone else in motion.
I can't decide if I should take on a bigger load in school thus letting the church suffer (not saying I can do much help, but we appear to be in dire straights) and my family time dwindle. OR should I take on more of a role at church but taking the long route with school. I am not sure how my family fits into this situation but I am assuming as I give more time in other places something must suffer. I don’t want it to be my family, but they often get the brunt end of the deal.
As I having be pushing of any decisions...hoping for a sign from God my daughter came up to me with a leprechaun hat and orange beard that she made at school and asked if I knew about St. Patrick's Day. As I was responding to her I was reminded of this Veggie Tale video which gives a fresh take on the life of Saint Patrick.
I might be crazy but I feel like Veggies are talking to me about God…or maybe it is my daughter…
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