Are you afraid of the Gospel and Church? So much so that you need to carry firearms to Church? Is the suffering servant image of following Christ's command to follow him to the cross to weighty?

Truth be told it should scare you. Suffering and servanthood often go hand in hand when we take on Christ’s call to minister to our brothers and sisters, renounce the lordship we hold over our life, and abandon our earthly security for the sake of the Gospel. However, these are not the costly and painful things that we have to worry about. It is the antagonism of the world's response to the threat of the suffering servant. Jesus put the powers of this world on their heels (in a meticulous way)and it is what we are called to do too. This call is not forced. Jesus reitereated free choice and foretold of the cost required to follow him, he continually told the diciples the cost of embarking on his path...will we acknowledge what we signed up for?